hey baby :( its 3am and im wide awake just thinking about you, every night you keep me awake and then im a tired grumpy bear the next day, i love you so much arjie, still doesn't feel real that you're not here, i still cant explain or believe the hurt in my heart and its not getting easier like everyone said it would, i really dont know how our lives will ever be okay again, i truly love you with all my heart and i always will, you were the most beautiful beautiful boy, even though we only had you for a short time, you bought so much happiness into my life and i will always remember that. you were amazing, and absolutely perfect baby, i miss you and love you forever xxxxxxxxxxx